July 27, 2005 - I feel like I'm stuck
in a rut right now. I haven't done as much as I would've liked this
summer. Part of that is due to the fact that the job working with
Dr. Creath was a little less academically stimulating than I had
expected. Hopefully the amount of research I do with Jim Collins
will be something that prepares me for next year.
Chris and I recently broke up. I don't know how to feel about it.
It's good in so many ways, because we both need to work on other
things as individuals, but it's also quite negative considering
the way I feel about her... which is still love and should be for
a while. We'll see what happens in the long run. I want her to be
happy for now.
There are a lot of things I want to change about myself and I'm
making a slow go of it. I think a lot of it begins next year at
school. I've heard both good and bad things about people's encounters
with me. Mostly, I think I just need to be a little more tolerant,
a little less hard-headed, and more mature about things. On paper,
I show quite a bit of maturity, but in practice my stupid mouth
seems to get me in trouble.
I'm interested in showing more respect to people, my family, and
a girlfriend. I want to take more responsibility for doing work,
both school and house related. I hope Ari comes back. I'm sure we'd
keep each other in check and his good attitude should rub off on
me nicely. We shall see.
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